Little sparks of joy – part 1

In the past people would speak about having a guilty pleasure when it cames to hobbies that other people would frown upon. Collecting dolls was something that belonged in the realm of old ladies and little girls but grown women? Not likely perceived as a hobby for them. I would feel unease to talk about my collection but over the years I stopped caring about someone’s opinion. I like dolls, I collect dolls and I will dress them up for fun. Like my good friend would say, it could have been drugs when we buy something that might seem quirky.

It is also a form of escapism, self preservation. If I didn’t have this I would be yelling at the TV or computer screen: “How can you treat other people like that?!” And boy with the state of the world today you need your little sparks of joy to keep you from going nuts haha.

One of these sparks for me is Licca-chan. I came across these adorable little fashion dolls during my firs trip to Japan in 2006. In a corner of the toy section in a huge department store, the name of which escapes me for the moment. And I think for all the fashion dolls outthere, Licca-chan is the most wholesome. She is cute, has a great fashion sense and doesn’t warp little girls minds into impossible beauty standards.

Licca-chan in a custom made one-of-a-kind furisode.

Fashion dolls aren’t something of the last century, they may have been in use as early as the 14th century. European royal courts in the 16th century to show the tactile qualities of fashion which could not be incorporated into paintings or described to tailors in words. A letter dated 1515 and sent by Federico Gonzaga on behalf of King Francis I of France to his mother Isabella d’Este asks her to send a fashion doll to the French court so that copies of her style might be made for the women of France. Imagine owning a fashion doll dating that far back, I would be rich haha.

Bild Lilli doll would be the first fashion doll before the launch of the wellknown Barbie but influence wise Licca-chan had more of an impact on me as a grown woman than Barbie ever did. She gives of the sweet girl in the classroom vibes. Always there to listen and inspire. Mind you, Licca-chan is an 11-year old girl whom competed with the more mature looking Barbie and she still managed to inspire kids to become a DJ, fashion designer or an ambassador.

Licca-chan was launched by Takara (Japanese toy company) in 1967 and created by former shōjo manga (japanese comics targeting an audience of adolescent girls and young adult women) artist Miyako Maki. She enjoy the same popularity in Japan as Barbie does in the US.

In 1966, Takara planned to enter the dress-up doll market taking advantage of the know-how of the plastic process. The initial plan was for the company to plan a dollhouse which could be carried by children, for dressing dolls of other companies like Mattel. The size was larger than expected and the plan was reviewed not suitable for Japanese housing circumstances and children’s carrying. While planning, a fashion doll, in a setting of elementary school, the height 21 cm to fit in the palm was in favor, adopting characteristics of a cartoon girl. Miyako Maki was put in charge of the illustration of the advertisement at the time of release and the advertisement was named as “supervised by Maki-sensei”.

The name “Licca-chan” was decided by the general public offering on the July 1967 issue of the monthly girl manga magazine “Ribon”. Subsequently, the name “Rica” became known as a name that works for both Japanese and foreigners. Two years after the launch in 1969, the dolls were accepted by the Japanese children causing Mattel (makers of the Barbie doll) to move its production base to another country, focusing less on sales in Japan. Licca-chan started exceeding Barbie sales and began to reign as the queen of Japanese dress-up dolls.[9] Despite the popularity, Licca-chan dolls suffered a decline in sales in the 1990s due to rival dolls based on anime like Sailor Moon. In 1996, Licca-chan returned to the top sales of dress-up dolls again.

The best thing about Licca-chan is that they have a special telephone line that little girls can call and hear pre-recorded messages of how Licca-chan is doing and telling the callers little jokes. This telephone line came into fruition after a young girl called the Takara customer service line and wanted to talk to Licca-chan. The representative within a heartbeat she told her: “Yes, this is Licca-chan speaking”. And until this day, girls can speak with her and hear about her day. Very cool Takara.

Modern day dress Licca-chan and Furisode Licca-chan

Through Licca-chan I found myself on a complete different side of Instagram, the Japanese small creators on Minne. Minne is one of the biggest online markets for handmade items and boy they have a ton of Licca-chan sized outfits that makes your heart skip a beat. A real doki doki moment (doki means heart pounding sensation).

Licca-chan in a handmade outfit from Minne joining me on a trip to Amsterdam

Because of her size, she is easy to carry with you for impromptu photoshoots. I have a small toiletries bag where I can safely transport her. Because she has tiny feet, I don’t want to lose her shoes in the abyss called my backpack.

Of the top of my head I have around 10 different Licca-chans. Some a bit more limited than the other. I am normally a remove from box collector but there is two girls that I have not unboxed yet as seen below. For the non-collectors under us, a never removed from box doll with a pristine condition box can have a high market value in the collectors world. But I am not in the hobby for money, I am here for the enjoyment of dressing up these dolls. Ps: I’ve seen insane bidding wars on these types of dolls and it takes the fun out of collecting for me.

Licca-chan Hello Kitty collaboration. Two of my favs in one box, what more can a woman like me wish for
Licca-chan Tokyo Olympics version. I was going to visit Japan that year but Covid hit and the whole world went to shit. I still have a pretty doll in the aftermath.

Official Takara clothes for Licca-chan are inexpensive and the reasoning behind it is that it still a fashion doll for little girls. A ¥ 10.000 (€54) dress is way out of reach for children and teens. And I hope that it stays this way. Many of childrens hobbies have been taken over by adults and sucked the fun out of it for mere hard cash, looking at you Pokemon trading card game.

While I paid €23 for that red furisode (the most formal style of kimono historically worn by young unmarried women in Japan) by an creator on Minne and I hope this person doesn’t sell herself short seeing the quality of fabric and detail put in this dress. There is a long history of creators under valueing their own hard work, in the hope people would still buy their outfits. Come on lads and ladies, you are wizards on the sewing machine, ask your honest price!

Another gorgeous dress by a Minne creator. Licca-chan is my matcha home girl

And now that the weather is getting better, I will be out and about more. So I should take Licca-chan with me more often. Because she deserves the spotlight in my camera roll. Because every day is Licca-chan appreciation day. 🙂

After 20 years finally returning to Japan

No, haha I am not going to live there but just visiting. Intially we had planned that we would go visit in 2020 but then shit hit the fan and the whole world trapped in a pandemic. Further down the line the invasion of Ukraine made flying to Japan from Europe much more difficult, as it wasn’t the first time Russians had shot an commercial airplane from the sky.

After a complete shit year of 2025, suffering from a burnout I wanted to do something for me and I told my husband as soon as I was able to score tickets to a Blythe event in Tokyo, I would be going to visit.

Luckily for me getting tickets to Be Summit wasn’t that difficult. Flights and a hotel were a bit more difficult. October is a very popular month to travel to Japan and I was going solo this time. Another difficulty arose when I was diagnosed with sleep apnea in December and I cannot live without my CPAP-device. Normally as a solo traveller I do not mind sharing a dorm with other women but my device needs a safe spot and I cannot keep packing it up and sticking it in a locker for over two weeks while I am out and about.
So the quest for an affordable single room was on. The flight was not that hard as I chose to not fly with KLM. Everytime I have flown with KLM the past 10 years, shit happened and they cancelled atleast one flight on me, making me spend extra money on extra nights in hotels or missing a night in a hotel because my flight was delayed. So here is to you KLM, fuck you. Royal Dutch Airlines my ass, Royal pain in the ass more like it.

Found a hotel in Ikebukuro, the part of Tokyo I was aiming for. Shibuya was too busy and Ueno was to expensive for a solo traveller.

Ikebukuro

I have been to Ikebukuro 20 years ago but I was in the middle of a messy break up, forced to travel with my ex and I hardly remember anything from that trip. I’ve completely blocked out that part of my life. So my 2026 trip is also an attempt at making newer and happier memories. Fun fact: after finding about the existente of Blythes and ball jointed dolls in Japan, I started to collect them and have been a collector for 20 years. 🙂

Why did I chose Ikebukuro? Well it was closer on the way to Nakano where my event will be, there is a direct Limosine bus from Narita and it has a bit of both new and retro vibes feeling. Sunshine City is a class place to shop and have fun. While it is far away from the other attractions, I have 14 days to sightsee. Which will be hopefully plently enough time.

I do plan to take a few day trips from Tokyo, to Yokohama and Kamakura. I want to see the Snoopy Museum, Kewpie Museum and the newly renovated Edo Museum (I saw this one 20 years ago). Furthermore a visit to Tower Records and Malto is a must as I have a few CD’s I am looking for.

Yokohama
Kamakura
Snoopy Museum
Kewpie Museum

I might change my itinerary depending on the weather and ticket availability but I am really looking forward to returning. A bit scary travelling by myself that far, last time was to the US years ago.

Art has been political for as long as it exists.

I’ve not been in the mood to write since the world seems to be spiralling out of control and societies once known as democracies turning in to facist hot beds, here is looking at you USA. But the commentary of a Dutch nitwit called Kevin under an Instagram post of journalists standing in solidarity with Hunter Hess’ statement about ICE. Kevin wants athletes together with artists, actors, musicians, etc to not talk about politics and do what they are supposed to do, entertain us.

Well, I got news for you Kevin, these people are not dancing monkeys for us. These people are people with opinions that they are free to voice whenever they like even if it does not suit your taste. But Kevin is a moron that only wants to consume entertainment without having to think about things. The boring type of person, in my opinion.

When you think of sports, even that is political especially on the world stage. Countries put out the best of the best in international competitions often displaying pride in their countries traditions and customs. You see it in the openings ceremony of the Olympics where each country shows what makes them a proud athlete representing them. Kudos to this years Winter Olympics participants of Mongolia, now thats how you how you show your culture and big boo to the Olympic Commitee for forcing Hatian participants to change their outfit and disqualifing Ukrainian skeleton racer Vladyslav Heraskevych for having images of dead Ukrainian athletes on his helmet. Remembrance is not a crime and since the Russian invasion 660 Ukrainian athletes have been killed and they want to lift the ban on Russians participating under their own flag. Fuck that organisation.

With all that said now comes my favourite subject, a form which at times can be very political, art. Art has been used in propaganda and art has been used to lash out to society and challenging what is normal. And the likes as Kevin, need to shut up about being confronted with things that force someone to think.

One of my favourite painters of all time, is Artemisia Gentileschi. She was a Baroque painter and considered to be among the most accomplished 17th-century artists. She was producing professional work by the age of 15 and the first woman to become a member of the Accademia di Arte del Disegno in Florence. Her clientele were found all over the world. Damn girl, you are slaying in a time that oppressed women very much. She even worked at the court of Charles I of England. Queen energy for sure.

Many of Gentileschi’s paintings feature women from myths, allegories, and the Bible, including victims, suicides, and warriors. Unfortunately, much of her life and accomplishments were overshadowed by a horrific rape at 18 years old.

In 1611, Orazio was working with fellow painter Agostino Tassi to decorate the vaults of Casino delle Muse inside the Palazzo Pallavicini-Rospigliosi in Rome. Around this time, Orazio had rented the upstairs apartment of their home to a female tenant, Donna Tuzia. Orazio recruited Tuzia to act as a “chaperone” or “guardian” for his daughter, Gentileschi being a younger woman without the guidance of a mother. During this time, Tuzia allowed Tassi and his friend Cosimo Quorli, a minor papal official, to visit Gentileschi in Gentileschi’s home on multiple occasions. Tuzia later testified that Tassi, though initially “devoted” to Gentileschi, grew increasingly obsessed with her.

One day in May, Tassi visited the Gentileschi household and, when alone with Gentileschi, raped her. Quorli, who had himself likely previously attempted to rape her, was also implicated in the assault, accused of acting as Tassi’s accomplice.

Gentileschi later testified that she tried to fight back against Tassi, scratching his face and unsuccessfully attempting to attack him with a knife, and that she cried out to Tuzia for help, which went unanswered. Art historian Jeanne Morgan Zarucchi compared Tuzia’s betrayal and role in facilitating the rape to the role of a procuress who is complicit in the sexual exploitation of a prostitute.

In the aftermath of the assault, Tassi demanded to have further sexual relations with Gentileschi, on the promise that they would marry, thereby restoring her virtue and securing her future. Gentileschi agreed to this arrangement, but Tassi later reneged on the promise to marry her. Unbeknownst to Gentileschi, Tassi was already married, albeit estranged from his wife. Nine months after the rape, when he learned that Gentileschi and Tassi were not going to be married, her father Orazio pressed charges against Tassi.

As was typical of the time, the major issue of the trial was the fact that Tassi had violated the Gentileschi family’s honor, and not the fact that he had violated Gentileschi herself. In the words of history professor Elizabeth S. Cohen: “The law gauged damage to economic and social assets rather than suffering and psychological trauma.”

During the ensuing seven-month trial, it was discovered that Tassi had planned to murder his wife, had engaged in adultery with his sister-in-law, and planned to steal some of Orazio’s paintings. During the trial, Gentileschi was tortured with a “sibille”, cords wrapped around the fingers and pulled tight (similar to thumbscrews), for the purpose of verifying her testimony (a common practice at the time). As the cords tighten, she is recorded as turning to Tassi and saying: “This is the ring that you give me and these are your promises.”

At the end of the trial, Tassi was convicted and sentenced to exile from Rome, although this punishment was never carried out, and he ultimately spent less than a year in prison.

Fuck that man Tassi, what an asshole with his little weasel Quorli. But my girl Artemisia didn’t keep this horrific event inside, she painted the pain, anger and disgust on the canvas and her art made men feel very uncomfortable.

Let me take you on a wonderful trip down her very famous works in which she slays literally and figuratively.

Judith and Her Maidservant is one of four paintings by the Italian baroque artist Artemisia Gentileschi that depicts the biblical story of Judith and Holofernes. This particular work, executed in about 1623 to 1625, now hangs in the Detroit Institute of Arts. The narrative is taken from the deuterocanonical Book of Judith, in which Judith seduces and then murders the general Holofernes. This precise moment illustrates the maidservant Abra wrapping the severed head in a bag, moments after the murder, while Judith keeps watch. The other three paintings are now shown in the Museo di Capodimonte in Naples, the Palazzo Pitti in Florence, and the Musée de la Castre in Cannes.

The explicit nature of the artist’s interpretation has led writers to believe that there is a deeper meaning behind Artemisia’s Judith, drawing back to the rape trial against Agostino Tassi.

Speculation from Elizabeth Cropper asserts that Gentileschi painted the feminine figures in a more heroic lighting, attributing characteristics of tragedy and sadness to these women, while also justifying their actions from an ethical standpoint. This representation of women in positions of power communicated Gentileschi’s endorsement of female strength and potential. To the knowledge of historians, Gentileschi’s patrons were all male. According to a string of Venetian poems that were sent to Gentileschi in 1627, those that followed the artist and purchased her work did so because she was female. Even though her figures were painted in the nude, contemporary critics expressed that there was more of a sensual wonder related to her womanly traits as an artist.

After practicing and honing her artistic abilities for only three years, Gentileschi’s father Orazio described his daughter’s talent as having superseded the level of the masters. Others who were very close to her, like academician Joachim von Sandrart, commended her work from which exuded “knowledge and rationality”, traits that were not normally connected to women of the time.

And I get it, as a sexual assault survivor myself, often the perpetrators get away fully or get away with light punishment because women’s stories or not believed or downplayed too much. Heck, there was a time when I tried to report it that the police adviced against pressing charges because it is a “she said, he said story”. So I have been ACAB for 27 years now, because fuck those guys.

Judith and Her Maidservant – Florence

One of her best works can be seen in Florence, Judith Beheading Holofernes. Gentileschi centers her work on the labor of the killing, which forces the gaze to start amid the tangle of blood, limbs, and metal. Her ability to display brutal realism is shown particularly in the details, such as the arc of carotid blood that spatters across the frame. This scene displays the use of chiaroscuro, or the drastic contrast between light and dark, both literally and figuratively.

Holofernes struggles in vain to press against Abra as the two women force him down with distinctly strong arms. Their sleeves are rolled up, as though they are performing an unavoidable domestic chore, and their faces express a staunch resolve. Judith drives the sword, which is noticeably vertical and shaped in a way that alludes to a cross, into flesh with an exertive force. Abra is depicted as almost a mirror to Judith, with a youthful appearance that departs from earlier portrayals of her character. She holds firm to the left arm of their victim as he pushes against her breast in desperation. Holofernes, whose blood puddles and spurts a deep red to contrast the white sheets of his deathbed, is overpowered and without hope.

How I wished I could have done this to my abusers, because the Law didn’t punish them at all or enough for what they did to me. I have a life sentence and they won’t even remember me. And boohoo to the people who say I should not have these feelings of violence towards my perpetrators while they had absolutely no remorse to commit an act of violence towards me. They are luckily if they never run into me again.

In a world where metoo is becoming louder, where people of power have been getting away to long with committing perversions on women young and old, looking at these art pieces gives us empowerment. Throughout history women haven’t been quiet about the injustices that have been done on them. I am tired of us being pictured as the weepy fragile woman that needs saving. I applaud strong women that are out there in the media giving young girls hope like Simone Biles, Harriet Tubman, Rosa Parks, Francesca Albanese, Malala Yousafzai, Marie Curie, Aletta Jacobs, Lupita Nyong’o, Michelle Yeoh. But even fictional women give us the voice that we need to fight against the patriarchy like Ellen Ripley, Susan Sto Helit, Sarah Connor, Princess Leia, Xena, Naru, Aloy, Hazel Flood, Maeve Millay,

Women won’t let themselves be silent and sometimes you just need to whack a nail in someone’s head because he won’t listen anyway to our stories.

Jael and Sisera – Budapest

This has been written by a human being, fuck AI, with excerpts from Wikipedia.